Criticism

Something happened today that I found interesting. It was interesting because it brought up some old mental programming that I thought I had gotten over. I had some people close to me teasing me about being healthy and eating clean foods, and working out. And I took it personally, and let it affect my mood. I found myself withdrawing and going back to my old programming that I wasn’t good enough, and that I wasn’t important. It was interesting because I knew they were just teasing me, but I was taking it to heart.

This was a good lesson for me to see my reaction to this teasing, to see there is a small part that still has a sensitivity to what others say, to see that I am still susceptible to my old ways of thinking. You see, I still care, I still am concerned about what others say. However, I recognized this and I realized that it is not my concern to please others. I am my own woman, and it is up to me to live my dreams. So, take this to heart, and look at your own life and see where you are maybe listening to others where it is not benefiting you, and maybe where you are letting others’ opinions hold you back. You do you!

A Thing

I did a thing today!! I finally finished something that I have been wanting to do for a while, for months actually. And to be honest, it has been in the back of my mind for a couple of years. I made a painting with an inspirational quote!

Yes, that’s it. I painted a canvas, and painted some stenciled letters on it, and there you go-an inspirational canvas. So, why did this take me so long to finish? Well. . . once the idea came to me, I bounced around the false belief that I was not very creative, that I didn’t know how to do something creative like that, and that I didn’t have the time to look into doing something creative like that. Then, after a couple years of thinking this, I thought, maybe I could give it a try. I don’t have terrible handwriting, and I could keep it simple and write a saying on a piece of colored paper and then stick it in a picture frame. However, at the first words of feedback that I perceived as negative, I became completely discouraged, and sank into despair that I did not have it in me. Then, I found a way that was a little more colorful and creative, but still didn’t get the positive feedback I was looking for. So, I set it aside for a couple of months, and just stopped.

Then, one day, I was talking with a friend of mine who was completely supportive of my idea, and had some great feedback for getting the lettering to look nice. But the key was, having a fun night with a dear friend, and letting go and enjoying myself when I discovered that I have a little talent with painting. It just clicked! This was what I had been looking for! So, I bought some paints, and some stencils, and voila! A masterpiece!

Now, I am no Rembrandt or Da Vinci, but there is something to be said for how I feel to have completed something I dreamed of doing, but wasn’t quite sure I could. I have always wanted to believe that I am creative, but I didn’t see it in myself. And it makes me wonder what other beliefs about myself might not be completely accurate. Like, where else am I limiting myself? And what about you? Do you have any dreams that are sitting by the wayside waiting to be picked up? Or ways that you continue to limit yourself? It’s time to set yourself free!

Goals

It’s Jan 1, 2020! The start of a new year, a new decade. What do you think of New Year’s Resolutions? I have always found it a little disappointing that so many people make resolutions on Jan 1st only to follow through with them for about a week or two (or maybe even a month) only to drop them by the wayside when other things come up, or it gets difficult, or the next level of Candy Crush comes out. It is humorous how many people you see in the gyms and fitness centers for about the first 2 weeks of the year. Where are they all in April? Or September?

So, should we just not set resolutions and give up? I like to set goals, but only ones that I intend to keep. I am cautious about what I commit to, so that I can be careful to keep my word, especially to myself.

My goals for this year are to continue to pursue my dreams and my passions, to put out positive energy, to attract the things I want in my life, and to let go of anything or anyone that is not serving me on my journey. I have spent this past year preparing my mind and myself personally to go out and get what I want this year. I am so ready to change and create my better life!

My goal is to post on this blog site or to make a FB video every day for the next 30 days. My goal is to keep working out at least 4 times a week for the next 30 days. And to continue to eat clean foods for the next 30 days.

I always love the start of a new year because it symbolizes a new beginning, a fresh start, a clean slate. It excited me to have a time for new starts. Let’s just stick to it!

Things I have learned

I have learned a few things this past year as I have gone on this personal growth journey, and I would like to share.

  1. How to take a compliment: I used to look for affirmation from others around me, and got incredibly good at looking like I had it all together. I knew how to do my hair, and what clothes looked good, and what to say to make people feel good about themselves, so I was well liked and admired. I would get compliments from people frequently, however, I never knew how to take them because I felt that I didn’t deserve them. As much as I looked for others’ approval, I didn’t accept it, and therefore, never knew how to just say, “Thank you” and accept what they were saying as true and valid. I have learned that I am enough and I am worthy, and so I have learned to take a compliment for what it is with gratitude and thankfulness.
  2. How to affirm myself: I have learned that I am enough! I am worthy, I am deserving, I am confident and capable, and I have everything I need inside me. I have learned that the thoughts I put in my head and the words I communicate are what will create my future. I have learned to speak and believe that I am an incredible goddess with unlimited potential, and to start living like that. I learned that it is time that I started showing up for myself, and that I am good enough for me, and it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks. I AM ENOUGH!!
  3. How to stop apologizing: I don’t have to live in the guilt, I don’t have to live in the ‘shoulds,’ and I don’t have to live by anyone else’s standards. I answer to my own conscience, and I am creating my amazing, better life. I am living in the moment, and putting out love and light, and there is nothing I need to be sorry for. I have learned to stop defending myself because it is just a way to justify myself, and it is unnecessary. I am enough all on my own, today, right now, in this moment!
  4. How to let go of the guilt: Living in guilt means living in some other moment than right now. I have learned to live in this moment, to be present, to live and love the moment I am in right now. ‘To be’ means to surrender to what is, to accept the uncertainty of life, and to give in to the unknown. And since doing this, I have had incredible freedom-freedom to enjoy the moment, freedom from expectations, freedom from guilt.
  5. How to persist: I have learned that nothing worth having comes easily. If I want anything to change, I will keep at it, and keep at it, and keep at it some more. I will fall, and get back up, I will continue to persist, and to rise again, and to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I will continue to fill my mind with my dreams and goals, and will not give up. I will not take No for an answer, I will not listen to the naysayers, and I will not let the opinions of others dictate my happiness. I will pursue my passion, and I will create the life I want.

I am creating my Better Life, and I am creating it now!!

Hard Times & Hope

I am learning a lot lately about how our beliefs impact our life. Like our whole life– every aspect from our health, to relationships, to our happiness, to our finances and everything in between. We each acquire beliefs from when we are young, and we carry those beliefs into adulthood. Many times, we don’t even realize these beliefs, but everything we do is based on them because we operate subconsciously from the beliefs in our head. The only way to change things is to change the beliefs that we have,and the first step is recognizing them. It is a journey, for sure, but one that can be done. If you need any help or would like to meet up for coffee to talk more, let me know! The good news is–I am in control of my life and my future, and you can be, too!

Beginning

So, I started a journey about a year or so ago, and I thought I would journal about my health journey. However, as I started going along, I began to realize that my growth has been in my personal journey more than anything else; which, for the record, I feel is connected to my health journey.

This started from a desire to change things in my life, and being frustrated that nothing was changing. You see, when I was younger, I had these big dreams and visions of being happy and rich, which I thought of as equal. But then as life went on, I had financial struggles, relationship struggles, emotional struggles, and wanted so much better for my 3 kids, and had no idea where to begin. I found myself at 41 years old, and still felt like I was missing something.

This is where my journey began. . .

Detox

Detox for the body is important for the liver, kidneys, and gallbladder, as well as our colon. We can build up an abundance of toxins and nasty stuff, so our body needs to rid itself of that so it won’t cause disease later.

I just finished a 7 day detox, and I will be honest, it was the first time I have done a detox. I feel so much better after the fact, but it was tough for me. I struggled with cutting out the coffee in the morning, and had a headache the first 2 days. After that, it was better, but I felt I was lacking some energy. It really made me aware how much I rely on caffeine in the morning, and that is something I really had to look at.

I did finish out the 7 days, which was important for me to finish out on what I had committed to, even though I wanted to quit early. It was a great experience, and I would encourage a detox maybe yearly. It also forced me to realize that I didn’t eat quite as healthy as I thought I did, so I am looking for ways to add more veggies into my diet, and I will be posting some recipes on this site. What are some detox programs you have tried? How did you do??